forget. pls forget.

when i saw your every expression it set me thinking.
why did i choose to like you in the 1st place,
was it you that gave the wrong signal
or was it myself that thought the wrong wae.
i felt it was so hurtful so pain deep inside
time to give you up,
time to concentrate on things worth thinking of
i want to do that too.
its not as simple as it looks,
its not long. just 1 yr. the 19thjuly.
hope im doing the right thing. or am i thinking too much.

it has nvr been like this,
it has nvr affected me this much
till i had to tear every moment i thought about it.
i think they dont understand,
nobody can. only i know myself,
i want to carry them myself.
i dont need sympathy or advises i think are unnecessary
i dont need help.
i need time.

the times you appeared in my mind;
the wishes i made for you;
the prayers for you alone, even before anyone else;
the words i hoped so much to say to you;
the reasons i kept running towards this particular place;
this special day that kept me happy for mths;
the unique number;
the recognised color;
keep reassuring the fact i need you so much.
all might be just a dream to you*
but such a reality and truth to me.


ppl are pushing me to the max.
i dont seem to understand the thoughts swirling in my mind.
my days are filled up by you
altho i understand its 1sided
to withstand all and to overcome.
with your smiles and hope lighting up before me
i see the shimmering chances holding the future.
but without you will life be the same?
w/o your smiles, face and actions
dont feel sorry cos of anything
im just seen as liking someone so much;
the deep scars carved stays forever
though your soul lies no longer.